I Played in her lap but she Failed to Recognise me
You know what life is, more than we describe in words, more than we preserve it through writing. I am always curious and lingering to find the purpose of my existence but I only understand it now, when I saw her laying on her death-bed, she has forgotten the life she lived here. She has forgotten the people she ever walked with and more importantly the one she created; her own daughter. What she could possibly ask from this life now, when her life has nothing to offer but a kind death?
It seemed like she is not far from the truth when she summons her strength to utter her last few words, everyone is walking past her in a haze determined as if they are her only saviour. But she gazed at the blank murmuring her last few words to me; I put my ears little closer to her with an unfailing intention to retain her last few words as my memory. She said why they are running when time is still, then she tried to bring a curve in her mouth and I knew she was trying to smile. She thought this is the end so did I. We stared at each other almost having a perfect silent conversation. Her smile revealed to me the ultimate truth of this life is death. I knew her smile was sarcastic telling me that I am about to get free from all of this at once and for ever, and nothing and no one seems to be that important anymore. I have played my part. Somewhere in that mocking smile I had my answers that no matter what you do; death is inescapable. We get sad, obsessive and jealous about very silly things in life, indeed these are hard when dealt at the moment, but when you realise how death makes them all look so mere you find the hidden answer, and meaning to your survival ship. I have found mine which has helped me to arch myself at an ease with this life and accepts it as it flows because all you can choose to do is to live before the inescapable death makes you incapable and sink you in removing all you desire, long, possess and admire with its one knock.
(RUPA BHATTACHARYA is 4th year B.A.LL.B Student of School of Law, KIIT University, Bhubaneswar, Odisha)